Im restless. Probably in resistance. Where to turn? What to do? Is it the very seeking itself that is seen and about to be surrendered? The driving vibration behind it? Seems I dont want to let that go. So do I want to continue seeking? Not finding what is sought? It seems so. Am I so attached to that vibration? It seems so. By what do I not dare to come to rest? Fear of ceasing to exist? Have I not already done that? Is this a new depth of it? One that I fear? Perhaps.
Not knowing whats going on, what context I am in, while fully awake. Leaving the contextual reality and its veils. And as that sentence is written, the contextual mind has re-established its control.
Fighting a battle that cannot be won. Only surrendered to and thus the battle is no more.