So much inner vibration and noise. What if it has always been so but I never was aware of it. The noise and the activities blocking pure awareness. It’s nothing external entering me, it’s my awareness becoming aware of the reactions towards unlimited awareness that is always present in me, subconscious.
Kundalini, awakening, subtle energy, nothing new coming in. Just awareness becoming aware of what is going on already. Of the intense blocking/contracting energies present, dissolving. Awareness coming home to its free unbound state, even as the individual. It’s completely opposite from how the person often interprets it, the awakening process.
As so many things, they are completely reversed when seen from an awakened perspective. The person seeking god, sees that he is looking out from gods eyes and was so all along in search of god. Believing to be a person.
The person thinking he is awakening, when he has always been awake. Just unaware of it as the person. The dismantling of contractions is seen as expansion when in truth we are always infinity, endless openness. We are just realizing a bit more of what we already are.
Experiencing myself as all experience and objects looking at the person. Where as I’ve thought I am the person having experiences and seeing objects. Rather its me as experiences and objects having the experience of a person. As a nave in the wheel that all spokes go into. All of it I? The nave dissolves into the spokes and outer wheel. For the first time experiencing the touch of the ground.
Referencing experience, the current moment, to the library of the person or to infinity. Which really is a non-referencing, but a direct experience of what is, as it is.
So much darkness, things I resist that are now surfacing. Awakening is the process of facing and accepting what we resist. Knowing that all is its exact opposite, we gain all the opposites when we accept the shadows. Indeed it’s the exact same thing, just the perspective that differs, resistance or acceptance. Embracing fear we gain love. Embracing darkness we gain light, death we gain life etc.