I leave the house of the experiencer and become the experiences and the many objects in them. From those perspectives I observe the one experiencer. Is that one also the source of the experiences and their content? I think so. Everywhere I turn, reality turns on itself into an impossible knot of reality.
Also experiencing the dense dark contraction of all my being. The whole individual construct, the contraction and the dense pain of it. Eventually it morphed into bliss and spaciousness, the very same signal.
Starting from the infinite, to go into limited self has to be a contraction. A stopping of the flow of energy, of awareness. My individuality, the blockage felt intensely unpleasant and massive before the experience got transformed.
We wake up to the extent we are able to meet our fears/shadows. That is a skill we can learn to master.