Ego, its role as a contraction and activity. Its natural state is contracted activity, though running is a form of that. To change it feels like effort. Our natural state is stillness but the identification in ego makes activity feel “effortless”. But there is no rest or stillness in ego.
I got to see that I like the energy of seeking, of struggling, meeting challenges and overcoming them. I like that and don’t really want to find lasting peace. Like I like the hunt for it. As I embrace that I also could see the energy of that and then also let it go when it surfaced. Really anything we identify with apart from peace is energies we are holding on to. To be able to perceive the energy itself opens up for the release of identification in it.