In what do I find meaning in life? At what level is it to be found? Is the search for it itself a problem? A bond to which I have attached myself?
Meaning, it has to exist in the personal level and as that it holds me steady there. Is it present in every level? Or do I become free of it? I think it is only a problem in the personal level of identification. In just being I guess its a non question even.
So is the search for meaning a trick of the ego to maintain itself? It may very well be so. What happens if I let go of all questions about any meaning to life? Surrender that motion completely. Lets find out. Dive into that abyss.
Its hard to even conceive of. I think it is a great barrier, a limitation to consciousness. I sense a great opening as it is surrendered but I think the ramifications of it cant be imagined from inside the barrier. Only experienced as that particular veil falls away. I will let it fall.
I sense its a key foundation of much of the structures I identify with. Love may be what is found on the other side.